What I realise

This few days i realise something that is i have been unappreciative towards my sis. And once u find out that she lost it you will soon see that its too late. But i praise God for his provision even thought we argued, and see was mad at me for being a jerk and also its because of the sin that was entangled in my life. Which is very destructive in nature. Sin can really take away everything from dignity to the form of relationships and even life its so potent that it would cause man to fall.

Realising this I have made a decision to give it up. its for the benefit of myself and also the benefit of my family. for God said in His word he cant tolerant sin so if i were to give it up God would be able to bless me more and is able to use me further for his kingdom. I believe he has a plan for me to take care of the young people i always have a passion for the youth.

He also showed me a vision that is a bean stalk that is growing in me a see he has planted is growing again. so it means i have to grow again

What are doing it for?

Today, as i was watching Narnia and ponder on what the reason i am doing things, the interesting thing about Narnia is that there is always biblical truth in it. The thing that strike me in the Prince of Caspian is the question that Susan asked Peter after they have invaded the castle. "Who are you doing this for?". Dont we usually relate to the reality of doing things in life sometimes.

Well i faced my challenge in my form 6 recently. I was so unmotivated that i felt a sense of regret for going for form 6 and should have gone for collage instead. But then when i meet my friend Angela and her friend something struck me in a sudden motivation that i can do it. Even though my mid-term exams prove that i really cant do it.. But i was also reminded a lyric in a song "impossible is a reason for us not trying" (kutless what faith can do) this also gave me reason to trust in God. Well there is a time when every christian will face that is what is the faith are putting in is it our works with our hands or the works of God? Got to put him the motive of my doings

STPM TIme table

Wow its like middle of the exams of the trials and to discover that the Time table is our man its going to be on the pressure is lol~ well it will be a long month as the exam is like one month to go almost like less then 2.. So got to work hard to achieve what we want a sluggard hand will not reap the benefit

Real or Fake?

Well have you ever wondered whether the guy or the girl next to you is really genuine? Or they are just messing up with you.

Dont be a fool went you go out with someone give it a Thought!  Sometimes the person your with is not really that into you and he/she is just toying with you either way that person may just be a mannequin a lifeless, heartless thing that just there to please themselves or you. Like W.Shakespeare puts it Love all, but trust a few. What he means love all is like what God said my commandment to you is Leviticus 19:34 But the stranger that dwelleth with you shall be unto you as one born among you, and thou shalt love him as thyself; for ye were strangers in the land of Egypt: I am the LORD your God. Sometimes love does come from the simplest act that a person can truly give and that my friend is something real.







Food For Thought
If we were to live in a world where everything is Fake. A world where everything seems so perfect and no blemish at all. Friends seems so overly perfect and your parents are together happily showering their love over us. Wow wouldn't that be a dream life, the love of your life being perfect and all...
Well its pretty easy to imagine it all and do wonder if Eve had not eaten the apple in the first place would man live closely to God? and dont have to suffer the consequences of sin? There wont be violence or even heart broken everything would be so perfect.

Coming back to Reality the thing is we are not in that sort of world. 

Things i realise

Today was a day filled with many wonders and realisations until i become so disturbed and sometimes i become to face reality of things in my life its truly something that one realise the goodness of God is always and will always be with me. I need to see which king is reigning in my life, as what i learn today, knowing this life is made much more simple and knowing this made me more of a life changer.



But sometimes i do wonder why do i go for girls who has problems not small ones but big ones. Am i a curse? AM i Cursed beyond reason? Am i doom to be what i am?
God are you in Control?

What is it when its real?

Today is another weekend and the week is almost coming to an end, fast it seems time flies. It is real?

Things that happens

This past few days i have experience spiritual attacks such as fear, worry, tension, depress, and etc. etc. all sorts of emotional problems... Even spiritual warfare seems to be so real as supernatural things start to happen. but in all this God is really reminding me who is he and what is he.

I praise God for allowing me to go through challenges in life in order for me to grow further... just now when i do my homework i felt very tension and very disturbed but when i prayed in tongues (in the spirit) my spirit start to be calm and lifted up.
Soon i decided to call my Friend....
When i talked to her i felt calm and feel loved...
The unusual thing is when i talked to her i feel love and wanting to tell her i love her.... the feeling of showing encouragement also to her.

To this point i realise one thing that is my habitual sin which i have to overcome and let go must not let it be a necessity in life. I WILL BE SET FREE!!!!

Love is waiting

Stuck

Well this few days circumstances got me thinking about life.... What is the person and  the reason we are here, and the meaning of living it? So many questions that seems to stuck in one mind.....

Hmm.... love is yet another mystery to the simple minds of humans and even more so to the complex....

this one will be short

Being the Catalyst

Ah well it seems that everything is settling down the king and i is done and we had a wonderful time Lol i will never miss it lol and besides that the prom was great another fantastic moment that i would remember. i think those will the first things that comes into my mind when i look back at school, generally i might just be in tears when i look back. Hmm... its like the last year of schooling and after this we would all look back into the times spend together....




Well thats the fact of life.....

I realise one thing when i read literature especially Malaysian stories it really does give me a sense that everything that this people write is really relevant to life. Just yesterday i found out that my good friends dad just passed and way and its like you would come to a situation and think aren't you glad that your parents are still alive.


Life is like a brief candle- Shakespeare.


Anyway i am going to miss my friends especially people that i have met through out the years and the times we spend seems to be very meaningful to everyone. We do come to some point and make enemies but still in live its the challenges and the wishes that makes us go forward, even the people we spend together. Make a foot print in the lives of the people we meet and one day when we are gone from this earth who knows you might have made an impact in a life of a future leader.

Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart”  Eleanor Roosevelt quotes

The view that disturbs

Today i was on the bus heading towards QBM i noticed that the environment is starting to change as mankind is polluting it even further with the claiming of further land. I could just imagine how the lives of daily fishmen would be as they rely on the source of fishing. In near future when ever we would head to QBM there may not be a view of the sea but just high rised building covering the sea view.

Well when i was at church service today I didnt realise that i wore a pair of jeans which has stains on it and it was so dirty. I found out when my sis said why do you wear those jeans? really one didnt noticed it until you actually looked down. Lol~ but the lesson learned is that when i was in cooperate prayer the holy spirit spoke to me that God is the only one who can clean us and makes us pure because it is only him that would make a difference in our life and through his blood only then we can come before him with freedom and redemption

Silence or Loud for God?

Have you ever wondered is SILENCE really GOLD?

Well to the ear of a librarian or some folk who is stressed out. (especially teachers when they teach) but the thing is Are we SILENCE FOR Christ? Or are we Loud for Him? that is what i have learn today. The thing is sometimes we are too silent for Christ in a sense we are not telling the world about people ABOUT JESUS! (i admit i do have this problem as well) So the thing is either we can choose just to sit back and watch and do nothing or we can just show a gesture of love to those who really needs it!

Perhaps Love?

Hmmm.... L.O.V.E 
Well now of days we can read headlines of super stars especially, for one thing they have the cash and it seems "time" to be involve with one another then break up worse married less then an hour divorce (man that got to hurt) anyway it seems that love is just a game to most people where the odds are more partners the better.
(wrong?)
Today i hear news even of married wifes!!! (you heard me wifes) would even cheat on their husbands. some even cheats for the reason to be satisfied. To me love in the world seems to be so corrupted to the point of no return. The reality is that MAN does not equal to love, reason saying so because man is not perfect in the first place and that we are generally selfish and always self seeking that the term "love" can be just mere words spoken by a lover or a relative.

Hmm... Love was and is never blind from the beginning. I can that it does not mean that love will over look on weakness that one may have but love really means to protect and to CORRECT the problem if needed generally love is patience, kind, gentle, peace, goodness, does not envy and so on its from the bible which puts love in this category. so love is more then a feeling.

HOli moood

Ahh... Well the holidays are finally in but the intensity of the exams coming are not far and its really to say the exams are even more nearer then before. its like the blink of an eye the two weeks are gone. the mood of the holidays.... :) wishing everyone happy holidays!

The test results are out and mostly i can see is that i have alot of things to make touch up if i really want to score in my exams. Anyway its been great living the new life God has given me. Even though i still need to improve in certain areas for example my speech. Which i discover can be my greatest weakness because the things i say may really hurt someone. Somethings are really meant to be keep as a secret. (i got scold for that)

Anyway today i will be participating in a debate about the realness of reality shows. Hmm.... Well thats something to debate about really.. :p the title for the debate is Reality shows should be shown to all viewers. my group is against it to be honest its easier to win it if we are against it. Heh! ^^

Well i hope to see that today would be a good day and that i would enjoy the last two days before the holidays that is the mid-term holidays 2 weeks. of self studying really now how can we have a group study when there is only one person who is willing to study. There are many out there but sometimes its hard to ask them out. some are just pure laziness lol. Well wish me the best as i am going to be in the debate

The Last Ice-Cream

Today i experience a breakthrough in terms of Freedom that really i never felt before, it felt as if my burdens has all been lifted up from my shoulders. Well after a decent talk with TH, somehow i felt the relief to know that i can return back to my spiritual home land while i go out and explore the new land.

Today was the first day being at GBC youth service. It was really a while since i been there and really have met a lot of old friends and hope to make new ones as i join this church. Well it does take time to assimilate into a new church but God speak to me even through the worship and through the word that was shared. i did enjoyed myself today even though it was short. The speaker was sharing about the life Elijah and his ministry the thing that caught my eye was that God was always sustaining him and through it all, God never left him or even ABANDON him. It relates to me as i believe this might be the time to be in the cave to take refuge, or re-encountering God.

I hope that through this I would be revived into something better i believe God has his plan for me to grow in him. So i pray that he will bless me and direct me as each time i discover something new about him. Thank God!

The mid term is finally over

YAY! the Exams are finally over now is the last part that is STPM!! The scarier one lol not going to be easy but i have to work hard for it! From now on i have to be diligent with my studies.

The freedom is near but the work is yet to finish there is alot of thing to do now because the play is coming up very soon and there are things which are yet to be discovered. its interesting to note how we humans has a way with living our life. Which i believe its true when one say without God there is no reason for our existence if you think about it. Really then what is our purpose then just to live, reproduce and die? The uniques of our very existence really makes a big impact in our live.

Think for a sec and realise that the coffee on the table was made for us to gain the caffeine that stimulates the adrenaline in us.

Dead and Gone

Sometimes i do struggle with myself knowing that What is right and what is wrong. Thats a fact but the thing is sometimes i wonder if i ever made the right decisions?

Well life seems to be filled with decisions that can either break us or make us.

The right ones does many things in our lives. Even never underestimate the small decisions we make it can be a huge impact to someones life the thing is life is really short to say that precaution is everything.

I realise one thing when i read Jane Eyre is that we got to be strong with ourselves and know what we really want. Knowing that what we believe in is the thing that will make us stronger. Knowing our weakness makes us know more that we are less then God we mere mortals.

Well thats life for us.

Back to what i want to say, My exams are almost over and i could scream if i can. At least the hard parts most of it has gone. Now i got to do some drilling with myself and more self discipline lol. (that is something i am lacking of currently)

We can say that Rochester is a robust man and has good features while yet he misses the point of life he has been with many women and traveled many places but it seems that he has been missing something something he is looking for to fulfill this need.

In a way almost all of us can relate to Jane Eyre honestly haha. 

Cant you smell the FREEDOM!

Exams Kills

Dont you agree with me when one says that EXAMS Do really bring Stress and emotional and mental stress. Some stress is good for the body if properly controlled that is. Now i am having my Mid-term exams and i could feel the pressure of taking the exams. Anyway i am also depress about a decision that i dont know if i should make because it will determine my future spiritual growth that is stagnant and would determine where i will grow. the thing is I am disturbed by that fact that i have to face it.... 

Chewing Gum and Dirty Minded

Someone once asked me if i was dirty minded. Any my answer would be Yes but the thing is girls Chew Gum! the thing is we are humans and the problem is that we have habits lol. And the thing is sometimes this things may seem harmless or nothing its all my own but it actually does corrupt our mind. So think first before doing something which seems harmless because in the bible said everything is permissible but not everything is BENEFITIAL

Ahh... the simple kuih lapis (layer cake) its something to eat delicately. Its like a person who has many layers in his/her life.

Tomorrow is going to be the first day of my exams and i am going to SUFFFEEER!!! its because its PP1... well i dont find it easy compare to the other subs. It something that some people find it easy because its just memorizing. Well for me memorizing is not easy LOL. (weak memo power) but i find myself doing the math prob a bit easier compare to the memo thing. Well its depends on the abilities of the person